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On waiting… (again)

Waiting can really bring out the worst in people. I’m not very good at waiting, and this is proven by the fact that I am writing about this yet again (if you missed it, I first wrote about it here).

When I find myself in a situation where I have to wait, not only do I get impatient, but I tend to become more distracted and more emotional. I try to find ways to take away the discomfort that I feel, and more often than not, I end up spending my time on things that aren’t very important. Anything that will numb my “pain” quickly.

I know it’s the same for some people, but maybe the distractions and temporary solutions differ. Not all methods are bad, but they’re probably not the wisest ideas either.

The sad reality is that the distractions and temporary solutions never fully heal us or take away the discomfort, because the discomfort is there for a reason. I find that it usually serves as a warning signal–a sign that something needs to be checked.

When I find myself in a time of waiting, that’s when my enemies come out to play:  my impatience, lack of focus, skewed perspectives, tendency to be overly anxious,  even my selfishness and self-centeredness. All sorts of stuff come out during times like these, and when I do take the time to stop and really take a good look at myself, I am disgusted and frustrated, but at the end of the day, I am also grateful. The sooner these things come out, the sooner I am humbled, and the sooner I am more willing (and wanting!) to step aside and let God do His work in me. I can’t make all of these recurring or surfacing issues go away on my own, but He is able. I just wish I would remember this sooner, and run to Him first, instead of wasting my time on other things. *Sigh*

I like the way King David put it:

“Going through the motions doesn’t please you,
a flawless performance is nothing to you.
I learned God-worship
when my pride was shattered.
Heart-shattered lives ready for love
don’t for a moment escape God’s notice.”
-Psalm 51:16-17 (MSG)

Can you relate? What have you seen in the mirror lately?

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What I’m Loving This Week: Thoughts on Love, Life, and Waiting

Some of my favorite posts from this past week:

1) Does God Still Restore Marriages? from Paolo Punzalan – my pastor just posted the video that made everyone cry at church last weekend (except for the men, of course….they don’t cry, their eyes just sweat!). I really hope you can take the time to watch this beautiful video. Oh, and prepare the tissues!

2) The Ultimate Poster Child For What Could Have Been by Steven Furtick – “What could have been” = scary words. I don’t know about you, but I don’t want fear to take over my life. This is another great read from Steven Furtick.

3) Waiting? (Read This!) from Anna Moran – I loved this beautiful poem by Russell Kelfer, shared by friend Anna.

Did you find any “treasures” on the ‘net this week? Do share!

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On waiting…

I’m terrible at updating this, but I’m really going to make an effort this month to blog regularly. I was so inspired by my friend and churchmate (and blogger extraordinaire) Ganns Deen!

There’s so much I want to blog about! But let’s take things one at a time…

I had a realization last week about WAITING.

Like a lot of people I know, I’m not a huge fan of waiting. I’ve become more patient the last few years, but waiting still isn’t on the top of my list of favorite activities. Waiting is tough. Sometimes waiting makes me excited, but more often than not, it makes me confused, lost, tired, weary, depressed, anxious, lonely, doubtful, paranoid…in other words, no matter what it is that I’m waiting for, waiting doesn’t always bring out the best in me.

But here’s what I realized. I often forget that God’s timing is perfect. He has already seen all things from beginning to end. He knows all our needs and He knows when to provide them. All of the wonderful things that God has in store for us are already marked down in His datebook.

Let me say that again.

All of the wonderful things that God has in store for us are already marked down in His datebook.

So we can twist and turn and beat ourselves up, trying to manipulate God’s timing, but it won’t work. We can try to make ourselves “more ready” or push ourselves to places where we think we ought to be, in the hopes that we’ll get to our “promised land” sooner than later, but all our efforts will be in vain. The appointment is already marked. And the date that God marked is perfect.

Here’s an illustration: I love Christmas. I love choosing gifts for my loved ones, and I love receiving gifts as well. I love all the parties and the food, I love the weather, I love the red cups at Starbucks. But no matter what I do today, December will not come tomorrow. I can write down my shopping list, prepare my budget, and buy Christmas wrappers, but tomorrow will still be June, and Starbucks will still have white cups. So what do I do in the meantime? I can’t live every day of June, trying to convince God and everyone else around me that it’s December. Not a good idea. I just have to remember that June is June, and there will be a lot of great blessings that will come with this month and this season, and I have to live in the moment and keep my eyes, ears, and heart open for what God’s going to do today, this week, this month, and this season.

How blessed are we, that He who holds our datebooks is faithful, loving, and all-knowing! And He reveals bits and pieces of His good, pleasing, and perfect will today, tomorrow, and each and every day of our lives.  :)

“He has made everything beautiful in its time.” – Ecclesiastes 3:11

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